1AM in FiDi
When I turned the corner off of Broadway in lower Manhattan, where the east and west sides met in the unexpectedly narrow chin of the island, I suddenly found myself blanketed by the towering...
View ArticleBook Club, Accepting Praise, and a Career Lead?
I managed to meet almost 14 people today, and didn’t leave my house. I gave away a few things on Buy Nothing, Irene Solaiman came over, and then I hosted an impromptu Book Club session for Ken Liu’s...
View Article2022 Resolutions
I can’t believe I forgot to post this on Synergism! I’ve been recently privately journaling much more than blogging here, although I missed the ease of both writing (with hyperlinks and media!) and...
View ArticleBurn out
// Duplicate with a hand-written journal entry I mostly played hooky today, accidentally very much aided by Foundry No Meeting day. I biked into the city and took one in-person meeting, which was...
View ArticleLos Angeles Notes
上周，我去LA旅行为了参加我同事Bill的婚礼和看看朋友。前几个月，很多朋友从纽约搬到LA了，让我也开始想象南加州生活会像怎么样。 当我来的时候，我的心态方寸已乱。通过各种小困难 （工作压力，生活意义，谈恋爱的，等等），我发现我最近变成一个悲观，焦虑不安的人。我从来没有想象我会怎么心如死灰，所以我开始考虑要不要休假。我提前讨论过 ”早退休“...
View ArticleThe meaning of life is to “enjoy the passage of time” [anxiety brain post]
Sometimes I’ll see some gems on TikTok, that’s one of them. I’ve recently had a lot of empty Friday night plans, and I’ve been reconsidering how to make Friday a Me day in the way that ceramics did...
View ArticlePost-capitalist Desire
(OCD workflow notes: jotted these notes down using iA writer on a long train ride from Lenny’s Danceworks show in Astoria back home to BK.) You’ve all heard about “separation anxiety”: the infants...
View Article10 Year Reunion
I went to my ten year reunion to Philadelphia this past weekend. According to Swarm, the last time I had gone back to campus was 2017 for my five year reunion. This weekend was so special, especially...
View ArticleBacchanalia: Gorge Yourself and Be Free
As I stood in front of the company fridge, looking at the grab-and-go sandwiches and high-protein snacks, I was suddenly overwhelmed with the desire to grab everything from the fridge and stuff it in...
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Pre-break break, summer camp birthday, and ITP
I’m two weeks into my vacation and it feels like it hasn’t been nearly long enough. Part of it has been ITP keeping my June extremely busy (in addition to hectic travel), but this little...
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“You can’t get away from yourself by moving from one place to another”
It’s not that crazy that The Sun Also Rises was about events from 100 years ago. It’s not a perfect update, but it works and is almost exactly 100 years later. Since visiting SF at the end of...
View ArticleSabbatical: facing my demons
10/1/22: I’ve been in my house too much (week 3) Woke up at 5am because my window was banging in the rain and I had a dream about swatting these horrible lime green bugs in my apartment. Long like...
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2023 mantras as design challenges
After a year of inward navel gazing and a lot of self-soothing after a stressful time, I’d like to focus 2023 on being a better person and helping others. I’m kind of tired of talking about myself....
View ArticleKiller Whale
It’s been a while since I’ve had such a vivid dream: I’m running along the highway in a city that feels a little less than familiar: a sort of Sydney with Boston’s highway connections to Allston, or...
View ArticleRegular Cycles, or: End of the Odyssey Years (Pt II)
One the night this week that I slept most deeply (but not restfully), I had an all engrossing dream where I was giving birth as a single mother. I felt the visceral experience of having my water break...
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“I still haven’t found what I’m looking for”: On dweb camp and the sublime
I took a trip out west for the past 9 days. Like clockwork, every summer I seem to find some reason that takes me to California and helps me to slow down a time that otherwise would’ve otherwise felt...
View ArticleNotes from Berlin & France
PART I: The Brooklyn-to-Berlin pipeline After taking nearly 7 years of German lessons in school, I finally got the opportunity to visit Berlin. The idea of it had never appealed to me before; I...
View ArticleTo grow alone
The mental disease that afflicts me is an insatiable need to mind-meld with the people around me who I love and love me, so that the way I experience the world can invoke in them as much sorrow and...
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2024 New Year
“The cave you fear contains the treasure you seek.” Joseph Campbell My resolutions last year were framed as HMW questions: How might I better serve those around me? (help my friends and community) How...
View ArticleThe sun rises in the west (Sabbatical notes #1)
On one cold day this past winter, I woke up at sunrise, alarmed to find the sun rising from the west. My bedroom is blessed with two windows, one facing westward and the other eastward, both occluded...
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